Connections.

Late Night Wanderings of a Restless Mind

I think about the times in my life when I made a connection with someone, a connection that would impact my life. There are a few who come to mind, but names are not important, and dates are not important, only the connection matters, because they will stay with you forever. Whether is was a mis-connection or a past connection, a casual connection or an intimate connection, they all change us, some more than others.

It doesn't matter if my connection with you was 6 seconds ago or 6 years ago, when our paths cross again, we will know it was for a reason. I look forward to the day that our connection brings us back together. I know that everything happens for a reason, whether or not the outcome is predetermined. We were in the same place, at the same time, for a reason.

We always blame ourselves for mistakes in relationships and as humans it is natural to regret things, but the connection was genuine. If I learn something from you, even if you break my heart, I cannot regret my time with you, you taught me more about me. I can regret decisions I made about you but I cannot regret you.

Our paths may cross only once, or you might be braided throughout my life, but either way you are significant. I can't put a prince on my experience with those people; those people who, in either a constructive, or destructive manor, shuck up my world.

These little thoughts are running around in my head, along with my memories of all of you. I think I am finally ready for you to come back into my life, even if it is only for a fleeting second, I need closure. I need to say thank you.

To the ones who still wait in my future, wondering when I will step on your toes, I am ready and I welcome your challenges, I want to know what lesson you have to offer me.

Isn't it odd though? How people just simply enter and then exit your life, only to show up somewhere down the line, Shaking things up again. My mind is completely blown by the concept. Sure it is easier today with Facebook and cell phones and iChat, but when someone drops in on you from the past, or what you thought was a mis-connection turns out to be real connection, you still are affected by the connection.

Connected and Confused
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The Brunette